Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Tired and Oh!

I should write tonight, but I am totally exhausted. Nothing terribly much going on. This is the week that my oldest daughter is here with me. Right before she starts school back up again. I know I've got to plan some days at the beach, and fun things before summer is all gone. I don't know about anyone else but I'm really looking forward to fall. The leaves, the crisp air.. ahh..its my favorite.

Oh! Did I mention that we had the ultrasound last week? Its a Girl! I'm really happy about it. Surprised, as I was thinking it was a boy.. but very very happy. Three girls! Yikes! Sierra was thrilled about watching the ultrasound, and even announced "Daddy! Its a girl!" We got a few pictures, and a video to take home.

I'm outta here.. sleep calls me. =)

Monday, August 15, 2005

Profound Thoughts #1

Standing too close to the karaoke machine while people are singing loudly and badly, gives me a headache.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Today Sucks

I'm absolutly sure today is the most hormonal I've ever been in my life. It started out bad from the very beginning. The phone woke me up this morning. My hubby didn't answer it because he was outside having a ciggarette. I struggled and finally managed to get off the futon to answer it. They hung up on me. And thus the start of a wonderful day!

We decided to go to the mall. Hubby and my cousin decided to go to the mall because they wanted to buy something. Did I mention that someone hit our car again the other day and we got some insurance money for it? Yes, I'm starting to think perhaps my "money altar" is in fact an "insurance scam altar." Where was I.. Oh yes. So, we get all ready to go. I shower and then bring the baby in to clean her up. As I'm getting dressed, the baby runs around the kitchen and gets into #1. My cousins deoderant he left out. Yummy! Now my daughter smells like Axe. #2. A cup of old coffee on the table. She dips paper into it, and then licks the paper and drips coffee all over her clean outfit I just put on her. #3 Finds the jar of peanut butter that hubby left out, open. Puts her whole hand and arm in the jar to eat it and stuff her face (and hair) with the nutty goodness. This all put me in a SUPER GREAT mood. She wasn't done yet though! As I'm getting on my shoes, she systematically throws EVERYTHING off the table! Bills. Gone! Pencil. Gone! Plate? Gone! Hand over hand she tosses everything to the floor. I should have just said "Screw it!" and stayed home right there.. but Nooooooo.

At the mall she decides she doesn't want to stay in the stroller. She screams. She kicks. I'm trying to look at a rack of clothes (for HER.. babies! So ungrateful sometimes.) Wonderful loving hubby says, "I'm going to the store across the way." and he pushes the stroller away from him towards where I'm standing. Just how am I supposed to pay for anything when him and his debit card are not there? And for that matter, how am I supposed to even think at all with her screaming at the top of her lungs? I left the store.

Fast forwards to about 20 other stores where the same thing happens. I try many times to just get away from dh and my cousin, but he follows me. Grrrr! I didn't want him behind me. I didn't want him saying, "Are you done yet?" I just wanted to be left alone! If I can't buy anything because I can't concentrate to look at things, the least he can do is let me putter around aimlessly while he focuses his hurried self somewhere else at things that interest HIM! (because obviously the things I'm looking at bore him to tears. If it doesn't go into an Xbox or a cd drive than he doesn't want it.)

My stomach was hungry. I thought maybe some pizza would make us feel better. We walk to the pizza place in the mall and I see the prices. I know I've been eating like a horse lately, so I suggest maybe Pizza Hut instead. I mean, for the price of 4 slices of pizza here.. we could get a whole pizza and a meal there. Ya know?

Well he didn't like that idea. He got grumpy at me. I walked out to sit in front of the store to calm down. Course dd is screaming, "Pizza!" and crying now. What does he do? He follows me out again! He makes a sarcastic comment about how "Mama said you can't have pizza baby cause its too expensive." Grrrrr... I go back in, buy one slice for her and sit down. She screams anyway because what she really wants is to go to sleep. (I already tried the carrier and nummies, but she just wanted to bite them instead.)

We try to salvage what is left of the afternoon. He ends up buying a game, and no matter what I go to buy... no one has it. Doesn't matter what it is! Simply can't find it, or the store doesn't have it. What luck I had today! Went to look for new sandles, and dh runs the stroller into the back of my heel my accident. I broke down into tears in the middle of Payless. I stood there for 5 minutes while people walked around me, just crying.

We finally left. The ride home was better, we were talking and laughing. Traffic was a bit heavy and I was kinda jumpy at his braking. (he doesn't brake til he gets right up on a car) A car moved out of our lane and he sped up a bit, but there was a car stopped in front of the other that we didn't see. He put the breaks on, I screamed. Then I bawled my eyes out for 10 minutes.

I can't tell you how many times I thought in my head today, "I just want to go home.". I don't know whether he was being an asshole more than usual, or if I was being super hormonal. I'm willing to bet it was a bit of both..

Monday, August 08, 2005


Omg I'm such an idiot. See? See?! Pregnancy brain has stuck already! I told you it would! It seems that the Comments for my blog have been disabled for quite some time now. No wonder you all were so quiet! I thought it was my lack of showering on a day to day basis that was driving you all away. (What?! Stop looking at me like that.. I was just kidding..) So anyway, I've enabled the comments once again, and uh.. for the past posts as well. Sorry about that! I'll try to keep my brain screwed in tighter!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Results Are In!

It's a.......

Yay! They did an ultrasound yesterday, but the parts were too small to see. She said if she had a gun to her head, she'd say it was a girl.. but that a scrotum could be tucked up in there somewhere. So we'll have to wait until my next one in 11 days. Hopefully they'll be able to tell the sex of my little sprout then! I think after all my worries about having a boy, I actually worked myself up to be excited about the prospect of having one. So much so that I might be a tiny tiny bit dissapointed if its not. I know I'll be wonderfully happy with another girl, but having time to adjust will be helpful. I honestly hadn't even entertained the thought of having another girl! I guess I should probably start huh?

My AFP profile came back, and it was negative. Course, the doctors office called and left me a message telling me to call them about my results, which freaked me out. Usually most offices don't call you if its good news because they have better things to do. They only call if its bad.. Luckily, this office is pretty cool! I am SO GLAD that I changed OB's this time around. Do you realize I haven't had one single internal exam, or even had my belly measured?? And I'll be 5 months along soon! Very very hands off OB here. I love it.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

39 (give or take) Things About Me

1.What is your full name? Ha! Not getting that out of me.

2. What color pants are you wearing? I'm wearing jammies. When I do wear pants though, its almost always jeans.

3.What are you listening to right now? PBS on the television, and my daughter humming to herself.

4. What was the last thing you ate? Cinnamon Toast Crunch, and a cup of coffee

5. Do you wish on stars? Only shooting stars

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? The darkest green in the box

7.How is the weather right now? Beautiful in my house with the air conditioner! Outside? I have no idea.

8.Last person you spoke to on the phone? Tmobile Customer Service
9.Do you like the person who sent this to you? No one loved me enough to send it to me. I stole it off my friends blog. LOL

10. How old are you today? 26

11.Favorite drinks? Iced coffee, and sometimes Pepsi

12. Favorite sport? Horizontal Tango

13. Hair color? Was dirty blond. Not really sure what color it would be now.

14. Do you wear contacts? Nope

15.Siblings? Yup. A half sister I haven't seen since I was 9, and a half brother I have never met

16. Favorite month? October

17. Favorite food? Chicken noodle soup

18. What was the last movie you saw? The Wiggles.. (I'm going to kill you Heather!)

19. Favorite day of the year? Samhein

20. What do you do to vent anger? Grumble, cry, talk about it or write it down

21. What was your favorite toy as a child? My Carebear, "Funshine"

22. Hugs or kisses? Depends on if I really like you or not. If I like you, hugs. If I don't like you.. get the fuck away from me!

23. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? What friends? LOL

24. Who is most likely to respond? Bah, on a blog..

25. Who is least likely to respond? Yup, still on a blog..

26. When was the last time you cried? Wait, I have to think hard.. umm.... yesterday. Yup.

27. What is under your bed? Nothing! Its clean under there!

28. Who is the friend you have had the longest? Myself

29. What did you do last night? Played EQ2 for awhile and then went to bed early because I was exhausted!

30. What are you afraid of? Rejection and failure

31. Plain, buttered or salted popcorn? Covered in butter and salt!

32. Favorite car? Talon

33. Favorite flower? Violets, ivy, beach roses, and sunflowers

34. Number of keys on your key ring? I'm not sure. I haven't used it in a year or so. Probably only 3. Two for the house, and 1 for the car that I sold and forgot to return the key. LOL

35. How many years at your current job? SAHM, 7 years 1 month.

36. Favorite day of the week? Saturday

37. What did you do on your last birthday? Absolutly nothing, but went out to breakfast a few days later.

38. How many cities have you lived in? Grand total of 10 different towns

39. What popular expression best fits your personality? "Whatever"