|Quill Clan, Yule 2011|
It's been awhile since I've written. I feel badly because I had a lot on my plate and a lot of people counting on me for things, but I've been ill the past month and am still battling some strange virus or infection, I'm not even sure which.
Even though I'm not feeling the spirit of the season, we put up the Yule tree today. To help me muster some happiness up, I picked up my camera and took a few pictures. It helped me a little. If nothing else, I can still document that my children are alive, well, and they even look happy!
Just like every other challenge I've faced, I will get through it. Hopefully it'll be soon because I'm really becoming depressed that I'm still feeling sick for so long. Even Thanksgiving wasn't normal. Chris made not only the turkey, but everything else as well. Literally. I didn't wash a potato, or bake a pie. Nothing. I've taken up crocheting, and drawing. Things that don't take a lot of abstract thinking because its just not there. The pressure in my head and the aching on a constant basis.. its overwhelming. I'd be lying if I didn't say at least once or twice a day I break down sobbing for no other reason then I just want to feel well again.
So I just noticed that Blogger has changed quite a bit. I feel like I'm in a foreign country or something. Buttons in odd places... this is going to take some getting used to again!
Before my computer eats my post, I'll hit the publish button. If all goes well, I should have my own .com shortly. I don't really need one, but I have to get one for Spiralscouts anyway so I'll get one with enough space for my blog and hopefully my online store. Once my head feels connected to my body again, maybe I can actually follow through with the dreams I had before. They feel so far away sometimes.
Oh, Odin's appointment with the developmental pediatrician is on Tuesday, and then with a different neuro psychologist on Wednesday. We booked appointments and they happened to fall that way. We've been waiting several years for these appointments however, so I'm really nervous. This is the big diagnosis appointment so wish us luck.